I woke up this morning at 2 am and couldn’t get back to sleep. That is weird for me. Typically when I have insomnia, I can’t fall asleep at first, but once I wrestle my pillow into a MMA-style submission move, I crash. Last night was different. I fell asleep readily, and awoke at 2 for seemingly no reason. I tossed and turned for about an hour, then I got up at 3.
I spent some time praying (not because I’m super-holy or anything, but there’s not a lot going on at 3am), and tried to go back to sleep. As I continued to lay there, this blog came to mind, and I had a sudden urge to get up and start writing.
If you’ve been following this blog at all, you’ll know that I haven’t posted for weeks. That is the #1 reason blogs fail, they say. So here I am, at 4:30 on a Tuesday morning writing blog posts. I haven’t read it, but I’m sure Blogging for Dummies has a section warning against waking up at 4 am, downing 2 cups of coffee and then blogging. If I was a professional writer or blogger, I’m sure this is the least productive way to get good copy. But then again, I’m not. I don’t get paid for this, so this is the kind of mindless drivel you all get to read. Thanks!
There is another reason I haven’t been blogging lately, but it’s a blatant cop-out: I don’t have a computer. “Well, you’re typing on something, idiot,” you’re probably thinking to yourself, and you’re right. I’m using my wife’s new MacBook Pro that was given to her by our awesome pastor. It’s a very nice computer, but in all honesty, I feel weird blogging on it because it doesn’t *feel* like mine. A few weeks ago, a good friend of mine let me drive his BMW 5 series for a few miles. He let me jam on the gas and see how well it cornered. It was an amazing automobile and everything felt great – but I felt awkward driving it because it wasn’t mine. Same concept here, I think. This is a great computer, but I don’t feel quite right, and I’m not sure why.
The more pertinent reason I haven’t been blogging is that I haven’t felt like it. Since this is my blog and I do it for free, you all have to deal with my emotionally-driven post schedule. If I feel like posting at 4:30 after some instant coffee (yes, I drink instant. I’m preparing for my life in Moldova) then I get to post. If I don’t feel like posting for awhile, then tough – you can check back later. Like I said, this isn’t the way to get readers.
Anyway, I’ve decided this morning to embrace the insomnia and write some blog posts. I’m not promising they’ll all be posted today, but hopefully in the near future I’ll have some more discussion points up that we can all debate about!
Thanks for reading, even though I’m a sporadic blogger!